When I Can't Dream
Hearing it such a sad thing thought and escaped, “He would have been so proud of you.” Do the words still mean the same? Coming from you? “Following your…
He Sees All.
Sunday was always busy. We sat in our usual seats at the table, did a prayer, and scarfed down food. After plates were licked clean we sped to church and sat…
Guilty Suicide
The words shone on the computer screen. A message to my blog, from an anonymous girl. Her name I did not know. I only knew her suffering. “Tonight I’m going to…
What a mess I've made
I stare at the photo of you in our school yearbook. In your tight fitting wrestling outfit. The pages almost sticking together considering how many times I’ve…
Something I'll Never Have
From the second he smiled I was captivated. His wavy black hair fluttered in the wind and his brown eyes shone in the sun. Tan, fit and very attractive…
When In Puerto Rico [2]
I arrived at the airport at around 7:15AM for an 8:45AM flight to Puerto Rico. I never thought my teenage wish of going on a country wide search of Puerto Rico…
When In Puerto Rico [1]
It started with a glance on a warm cloudless June day. I remember sitting by the pool and he sat next to me. I had never seen him before and yet all I wanted…
First Love Thickened With Time
Devon could smell his aftershave, the same spicy, wooded scent that had lingered throughout his adolescence. He hadn’t seen seen Ben in almost 10 years, and…
D Lovely
He watched Donnie, his lithe form shifting with the talking he did with his hands as he punctuated his points with hysterical little air-diagrams in Kevin’s…
Stalemate
“So you’re saying that because I’m gay, I don’t have a soul.” Donnie said, trying to hold back a smile. Needling religious people seemed like a fair trade for…
A Different Reaction
I don’t want to get mad. I really don’t. I have to respect that Austin has a reputation to keep, but if he’s so willing to open up to me like this, what’s…
Say What?
I decided not to interrupt Shay, after I see her and Jane talking. Shay would kill me if I didn’t let Jane express her feelings, so I stay with Austin for a…
Ben
Ben finally came out to his parents the other night. He’d known forever that he was different, but now he was sure. They called what he felt “homosexuality” or…
From: Benjamin Kola To: Laura Wilson
*Laura, hey! How are you doing? I might as well get the point. You know Randy, right? Uh, he might ask you out.* Ben looks up from his paper and across to…
This Close!
My heart stops beating for a second. I’m speechless, I mean, I have so many things to say, so many things I want to do. Hold him, kiss him, talk to him. “Gabe…
Finally Some Truth
“Jane took it the wrong way. I was angry at her, because, well. We were making out at a party...” “No kidding,” “I did it because... she told me that she…
No More Taradiddle
“Hold on, Austin? That guy over there called Shay a slut?” I ask furiously. No way would Austin do that. “I don’t talk taradiddle. He called Shay a slut,”…
Shhh! Just Watch.
“Gabe, what the hell are we doing?” I whisper furiously, both relieved and sad to be leaving Jane’s side. Gabe climbs into the car and slams the door as I pull…
Spying
“Hey, Gabe. Sorry it took so long. You forgot to give me the address,” Shay says. I try to flash her the look indicating that this is a really bad time, but…
Benjamin Kola in 25 years
I trust you with this information, Miss. Please don’t tell anyone. Me in 25 years? Well, that’s fairly easy, I’m going to be with Randy. Oh, you mean as a job…