Holding Back

So much tension, so much pain, I feel so much for you, Why don't you feel the _same_?

All this time, it was going so well, Suddenly reality hits, And now I want to *yell*...

Not at you, but at the world, For tricking me _yet again_, I hate how it unfurls.

I do feel deceived, Some would say led on, This isn't what I imagined, Why are your feelings for me _gone_?

Hurt and confused. (That's the only description.) I'd ask you these questions, But I know you'd dismiss them.

Was it something I said? Was it something I _did_? Is there something you're not telling me? Why did your feelings for me _rid_?

I don't want you to be angry, I don't want you to be sad, I don't want you to cry, But why do you seem so glad?

I thought I made you feel special, I thought I brought you joy, I thought we looked cute together, I thought you loved me as _*your* boy_.

We are surely changing, But I hope this _transition_ doesn't fade to black. So for now I'll be forcing a smile, And it's all because... well, I'm *holding back*.