It's Time to Wait

It wasn't because it hurt. I expected it to.

It was because when it didn't,

when it felt good, I wished it had been a way of saying "I love you."

And it just wasn't.

But I have to move forward, I have to wait for the one now. For me.

But at least now there is no anxiety-filled mystery. I am ready to fall for someone.

Not fall _into_ or _onto_, just fall and smile and feel and be happy with a friend that just so happens to think I'm beautiful and that wants to make love _with_ me.

I just need to take a breather and wait. They tell me I'm passive. I tried to change that, but I think sometimes it's good. And it's time to just wait a while.