So Far

I listened to the radio today That pop station that plays those songs Loud ones, fast ones, vapid things I cranked that crap up Nearly blew my dime store speakers Must have pissed off half a dozen neighbors But god, every song had such weight Elevated on decibels My brain throbbed and surged so far

I left home today Bolted really, sprinting out the door I carried a hastily packed duffel And enough grief to keep me running Sheer refusal I saw no more death Utter desperation I saw only life Desired only to live and live at full volume Frightened of memory I'll keep running on, so far, so far