God will always be dead to me

The lights on his face reflected. Showing every little stubble as his eyes pierced through me. His words had a way. They touched my heart. Made my soul feel free. A distant love, like an idol, yet just a girl. We sat in the car as I looked to him. His eyes piercing blue. longing a kiss. Every glance would melt my heart though I would see him night and day. Silent love a girl so young. A boy so set on music and God. The day I found out he met a girl She just like me... only his age; My heart broke never to heal The moment he married I became dead. Black inside. Why didn't he love me. I was there I was his biggest fan. Those blue eyes pierce through my screen. I curse the day internet was created just to remind me of any and all the boys I once loved. Slowly dying trying to move on. Not even a word...just a lyric riff in his song. I felt betrayed by God. It still burns. Too bad I was in love with a son of preacher.