Inside Outside

I sit here and hold it inside.... Outside, I am restricted from freedom Inside I'm a child that needs Ritalin jumping around with drool hanging from my mouth Stained with blood and tears I cannot scream I am stripped of all my privileges my head is throbbing & I continue to sit here Everyone that I've helped is just watching me Die I sit here quietly and I jump around My body tremblings because I can't take it anymore ... But I remain still yet I'm melting away inside I'm screaming inside, but nothing comes out in the outer me Some one please come help me I'm alone I'm in the dark they are going to get me please, shine a light I'm afraid, I'm scared I see it My pain is eating me I could rip my skin off my bones and not feel as much pain as my parents have inflicted on me Two worlds judging me & I'm still laying here in many different pieces bruised & scarred I'm afraid But I have to break free I'm scared But I have to breathe I'm disgusted But I live I'm petrified But I need to be me Someone Please Help!