No Key

(12/02/10 – Day 129)

_When your trapped and there's just no key, & you can't breathe ... I breathe for you_ Tonight was supposed to be about me, but it wasn't I am stressed to the tip, with my mortgage, the people at my job, my makeup is running down my face, & my cat died 2 days ago. Philadelphia is absolutely gorgeous tonight, and I'm crying. I must look like a hooker, with these clothes on. He wants to be my key, and breathe for me, then where is he? I don't know what I was thinking, because I didn't drive, and now I have to walk. Its cold out here as the wind brisks past my little legs. I walked past this club, and the music was blazing. I entered. I took center stage, and whipped my hair back and forth I felt so many eyes on me, and I enjoyed the attention. Until I looked on the balcony, to see him, He was sitting by himself, with his favorite drink in his hand. I opened up my locket, hoping he would sense the key. I placed my kiss in the locket & gave it to the waiter to give it to him and then I left.